learning to love my new life

my new sites up, in case ya didnty get the email...

2009-02-10T00:08:00.005-08:00

www.goshiminteresting.com

So long, farewell, auf weidersehen, goodbye

2008-12-01T15:35:00.000-08:00

This, my friends is my 200th post!!! and my goodbye, I am removing myself from the web entirely except for a family webpage that will be up by the new year if all goes as planned. I am focusing myself on my family and repairing it,I am working now, my husband and I are going to start counseling and I am starting school in the fall so I just don't have the time, and really the desire has kinda left me...maybe if I had started an anonymous blog, I really just want a journal now. Who knows I may decide to do this again but right now my husband and I have decided to remove ourselves from the web, him, his game, me, my sites (myspace, all that time consuming jazz) and focus on us, so friends family if you want to remain updated again the website will be up by January and I will link it here, also email and hello! the telephone! and I have a sidekick so I.M. blog buddies, I will continue to read and comment, it will just be far far far less as I will be online much less. I haven't decided what to do about the site leave it up make it private, but I'm sure I will decide soon enough, as for now...

ignore the dumb 5 second beginning, I'll leave you with my last secret (i never made it to 30 hah) I never saw this movie, yet I know pretty much every song from it...weird huh?

my ~FAVORITE~ of course

I'am thankful for... secret 5 of 30

2008-11-28T11:37:00.000-08:00

Happy thanksgiving y'all, sorry this is late

I'am thankful for

-a healthy, beautiful, bright, precocious, even tempered daughter

-a roof over my head and food to eat

-my job

-my husbands job

-a daycare that gives us both the ability to work

-a second chance on my marriage

-the ability to wake up each day and take another breathe

-supportive friends (real and blog friends)

I may have had the year from hell but I try to always remember that I will always have things to be thankful for, I hope you all had a wonderful thanksgiving!

**secret 5 of 30 (man this is slow going huh?) I hated thanksgiving as a child, it was my least liked holiday cause my mom made us man sized meals and it was a rule that you couldn't leave the table till your plate was clean, it was torture, I like it now and I can look back and laugh but I remember that feeling of dread every year haha**

secret 4 of 30

2008-11-25T12:13:00.000-08:00

“I have no particular talent. I am merely inquisitive.”
Albert Einstein

I have a new watermark yeays, I don't care to make photography a career, I don't know what I want to do career wise anymore to be honest, but its a hobby of mine that I really care about and try to put time and effort into. My watermark has always been there to...mark my territory, to say "look! I did this", which leads to my 4th secret, I absolutely loathe when people ask me what kind of camera I have, its not that I mind telling them, not at all, but would it kill people to acknowledge its me behind the damn camera? I'm not saying I'm some brilliant photographer,I'm an amateur through and through. Hell, I don't even claim to be good but it can sting when you spend a good while getting that perfect shot and are really proud only to have someone say "that's a cool picture...what camera do you have?" After you eat an awesome meal how many people ask the cook what pot they used? Photography is learned... I look at the photos I took in feb and the photos I take now and I see a definite difference (don't believe me? click HERE ) I no longer click away in auto, so it urks me when someone assumes I don't put in any effort.

1 year pics cancelled

2008-11-22T15:31:00.000-08:00

Awful title huh? I don't believe in fate but this was just not meant to be! , not being home to take them on her birthday,waiting for the backdrop to come, waiting for a good day to get them,taking them and being dissapointed at something whether it be the weather or the fact that I was missing something , the day I was finally ready with everything perfect had the cake the balloons everything, my daughter was getting sick so she was fussy, she was NOT having it, she did not want her photo taken, I gave up and decided to work with what I had, (which to be honest really aren't bad, just missing the bday feel) immediately after that day one by one we all got sick, that's why Ive been gone so long. my daughters losing her voice and everything. this year has been an absolute disaster...whens it gonna be over? and on that note I'm off to be grumpy and sick, I'll be back soon.

One of my favs, look at that faceeeeeeee, this one one of the practice pics I took before I had everything and on a crappy day, again nice but missing a bday feel, is it just me that feels that way? Believe me I had cake and balloons not to mention nice day, she was not having it that day, she was in tears in practically every picture, they were still cute but I feel bad doing anything but deleting them knowing she wasn't feeling well, oh well there's always next year.

secret 3 of 30

2008-11-11T19:57:00.001-08:00

"I hope you still feel small when you stand by the ocean,Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens,Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance,and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance...I hope you dance"

(I know the songs cliche...so sue me!)

I'm not sure what to call this... a mess up? practice? I attempted to do her 1 year pics but it just wasn't happening...I hate hate hate work and weather, they both lead to bad pictures, reason? by the time I get home its practically dusk so no good light and its been raining for 2 days but mark my words I will get the photos I want,as much of a mess up the situation was I liked this photo too much to not try to work with it *sigh* I love this little girl, she makes my horrible pregnancy with her absolutely worth it,which leads to my 3rd secret, at 39 weeks I was told I was going to be induced because my blood pressure was sky high, I was sent home to pack and was to check into the hospital the next morning...my secret? As soon as we left my Ob I made my husband take me to McDonalds to get me some salty fries, I know I know, but I really had no idea how dangerous high blood pressure was at that point and was scared it would be normal the next morning and they would send me home, I was that desperate to get her out...its kinda embarrassing to admit just knowing now how much of a miracle it is to bring home a healthy child, I mean so much can go wrong I really had no question I was coming home with a healthy baby, little did I know how close I was to disaster, I thank my lucky stars my naivete didn't cost me any harm to my lil munchkin'

secret 2 of 30

2008-11-08T16:20:00.000-08:00

"Who am I to say this situation isn't great? When its my job to make the most of it,
Of course I didn't know that it would happen to me. Not that easy."

Are you guys ready for secret 2? I'm still in shock over what has taken place this year and feel that I will always harbor resentment because of it. But, I must be clear not for a second do I second guess my decision to work things out with him, I'm just incredibly pissed my rose colored glasses were removed and I've witnessed such coldness not only from him but the people I surrounded myself with because of him...I doubt I'll ever get over that, I can forgive but I can never forget...

We did it

2008-11-04T21:25:00.000-08:00

History in the making people, and were a part of it! (well the people that aren't pissed McCain lost)

secret 1 of 30

2008-11-02T18:26:00.001-08:00

so much cuter big so click it!

I stutter...

not nearly as badly as I did as a child, as a child I would literally be paralyzed with my mouth stuck open unable to get the words out, now it only happens if I'm excited or nervous,and I can usually stop myself and start over.

Before I get the "this isn't a secret" from my irl friends, its a secret to my readers, I'm going to go back and forth big secrets and small, some will know while others wont...hope that clarifies, if what I'm doing is still unclear check it out here and again join me if you'd like :)

happy halloween 2008!

2008-10-31T07:07:00.000-07:00

just a few things...

2008-10-29T15:15:00.000-07:00

*forgot to announce that my baby girls walking

*I'm taking her bday pics and Halloween pics on Halloween so expect them then, I know I suck but, that's when the package is a comin, I'm getting impatient...

* I'm starting a 30 secrets in 30 days project and I'd like others to join me! its actually a flickr group but I decided to do it here as well! if you want to join, fellow photography affectionado's, that would be great, heck even if you don't have a camera if you just wanna do it then join the bandwagon it should be fun, I'm going to start in the next few days.

* Thanks so much for weighing in on my last post, I love to see other peoples views on these things, I really really enjoyed reading the responses so again thanks :)

*I added a few blogs from others dealing with marriage issues...

*ummm I forgot, I HATE when that happens...

(click the links please, in case they aren't highlighted its the words walking and groups)

yes on prop 8?

2008-10-27T19:14:00.000-07:00

I have nothing against gay marriage, I don't believe I or anyone has any right to say who a person can marry, if its a sin let God judge them, I find it silly to use religion as an agrument to stop them from marrying concidering how much a legal contract marriage really boils down to at the end of the day, you love someone you honestly dont have to marry them to prove it, your love doesnt plateau until you put rings on your fingers but if you want life insurance, benefits, tax cuts, and hell just the stigma to go away you'd better jump that broom, of course I believe marriage means more than that, to each person its a different meaning imo, I'm just being technical right now, marriage gives you and your mate a lot of rights you wouldnt get otherwise, they want the same rights that any person recieves,at the end of the day religion cant interfere with govt and a marriage license is well, its a contract, a piece of paper, you think stopping someone from getting that paper stops them from being married in their hearts? I dont. So I dont see the problem with letting anyone who wants to get married, get married and thats my opinion

BUT, I do not agree with what has been going on, a gay teacher having gender bender day,another gay teacher taking her entire class to her wedding as a field trip, these are young children, what the heck is the point of this, ok I get it your gay good for you, quit shoving it down other peoples young childrens throats, it is not your place, and really your not giving a parent the choice of whether or not they want their child introduced to these concepts, sex ed needs a parent slip right? I think this should be the same! I think a person has a right to believe being gay is wrong because their religion says so, I dont believe they should interfere with a gay persons life or be hateful likewise I dont think a gay person should interfere with that persons parenting or try to force their lifestyle on them, sometimes I think minority groups believe they have no boundaries when it comes to being heard, but there are, equality means equal, not ones rights above the others just because they believe they are right and you are wrong...

Am I totally wrong on this? I'd love to hear others opinions agree or disagree

birthday photos coming soon

2008-10-18T18:17:00.000-07:00

we gots internet so I'm back on buuuuuuut, I'm waiting for something I ordered to get here so I can do my baby girls bday pics, a month late...sad huh? well I have an excuse. I've been busy unpacking no interwebz time, but I will catch up on everyones blogs over the weekend, I also found a couple of blogs on reconciliation and divorce...I may have to add to my blogsphere seeing as I dont fit into the happy housewife catagory any longer.

sorry im still alive

2008-10-10T20:22:00.000-07:00

I just won't have internet until the 16th :[ my baby girl will be back tomorrow though, yeays,I also got a job! Ill be back soon

I'm open again...

2008-09-27T09:18:00.000-07:00

And all the dramas been taken down...not deleted...just taken down, this blog is about to become boring again sorry :( 2 new posts are up! I'm going to go and comment everyones blogs over the weekend, I have a lot of catch up reading to do...

savannahs birthday pictures are going to be late

2008-09-26T23:25:00.000-07:00

because shes not here and I didnt have what I needed to take pics on her bday from cali

we did go to disneyland with my bestie desiree

We all had a blast, but now I'm sad seeing all the pic's, I miss my baby girl :(, I cant wait to do her bday pictures, I am seriously excited although I'm not sure whether or not I should do them myself or just go to one of the chain stores, jc penneys do really really cute one year sessions.

I was suppose to start my 365 again

2008-09-26T17:15:00.000-07:00

On my baby girls b-day but we were in Ca and shes still there with fam soooo I'm not sure what to do. I feel like I have so much other crap pulling at me, but I really feel a joy with my camera in hand and seeing what I can *try* to create...what do you guys think? Start it up again late focusing on banna boo? A 365 focused on the huge change of life I'm going through or just chuck the idea....

whoa...

2008-09-17T16:17:00.000-07:00

I've been mia for a while a whooole lot has been going on. Sorry I wasnt here to respond to the last post but in response to anon, I agree its a shame that women are talked down to now a days, but I want to make two points about that...one, Obamas comment was never a condesending one imo, its a well known joke and was twisted by the republican party to seem like it was condesending and I must say it worked in their favor , it was dumb of him to say...funny..but dumb ...but not for a second do I believe it was meant to be derogatory. Second we ourselves did this, women call eachother b*tch and hoe way more than men do, our demands comfuse even me and I have a vagina....we want to be seen as equals that were no different than men but expect to have doors opened and chairs pulled out...ummm ok? We can hit a man but he dare not hit back...ummm ok? We want to be able to sleep with whoever ala sex and the city, but get hurt if we develop feelings and the man that viewed us as a screw walks away...ummm ok? We have a choice of working or staying at home...but were judged no matter the choice, your lazy and your husbands pet if you stay at home and you neglect your children if you work...and this is what other women say!Women are the most ruthless to one another, we backstab, we talk behind eachothers backs, gossip about friends most personal business,and are more jealous than proud of one another, I know this because again, I have a vagina...women want respect...we need to start getting it from one another,thats my opinion on that and the whole issue.

** forgot to add, I dont think it was presumptuous(sp?) of me to assume shes using her child as an advantage...I'm going on what I saw, she did a bit much imo, squeezing and hugging him on that stage,I dont see anyone else doing that...she has other kids, why wasnt she walking with her preggo daughter rubbing her belly, lets be real, lol**

To answer everyones questions, I was in Oklahoma, then DH and I discussed reconcilling, have been for a little while now, I didnt feel comfortable mentioning it, I was in tx for a day then came to cali to ride out the storm and drop the baby off for a couple weeks to let her visit with family here, I'am in Cali right now...I feel like a damned transient. I dont know where things are right now at all with my life or where I'll end up, just taking things one day at a time...I'll be sure to update more often though :)

" a pig in lipstick is still a pig"

2008-09-09T21:07:00.000-07:00

Bwahahahahaha

Gawd can Obama get anymore awesome...

Flat out what McCain did was sneaky and manipulative trying to take Hilarys votes with a woman, any dork that falls for that and decides to vote for him based on his running mate better not tell me so, cause thems fightin' words, and then the down syndrome baby ploy, oh brother, "yeah lets vote for her she's got a sick kid" its sickening, Americans can't possibly be dumb enough to fall for that, they can't be, but then again the weapons of mass destruction crap got us 8 years of hell, ugh please not 4 more years of bush, our men need to be home, we need to protect our borders not playing babysitter for other countries, the damage that's being done is irreperable, again fightin' words...

Savannah figured out how to push the buttons on the tv

2008-08-05T10:21:00.001-07:00

greeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaat :P I love my snuggie doo

Happy 4th of July everyone!

2008-07-04T07:55:00.000-07:00

I got permission

2008-06-29T21:05:00.000-07:00

here are my favs from the day

my first mommy meet up

2008-06-28T23:30:00.001-07:00

Or should I say parents at the park photography meet up because there were 2 men and 2 women so I guess mommy meet up would be incorrect....anyways it was fun :) but it was super hot, and I really wish I had gotten more shots and planned things out more, I did a lot of cropping, I'm going to read up on composition and kick butt at the next meet though! It was half and half 2 nikons 2 canons...the Nikon's kicked butt...hehe jk... I will post pics if I receive permission

Oh and Kathy and anon, I finally replied down below sorry it took so long I was busy studying my camera so I could be ready for the meet up

new cam and working on improving my skills

2008-06-27T14:53:00.000-07:00

So, my cam is here, I am now officially a nikon girl! No more camera changes,I have my dream camera. Lenses, now thats another story but for now I'm content, I'm really trying to work on editing more, I've found myself spending a lot of time learning about taking pictures. iso and f stops and appenditure and exposure and composition and my goodness I never knew so much went into taking a photo, its going to take me a long while get everything in my lil ole brain :P but I'm really enjoying learning and I hope to be as good as some of the photographers that inspire me.

heres some editing I did

I haven't the slightest idea what she was laughing about but its so darn cute who cares, did you notice her earrings gone :(, I have to go out and get another, I am loving working with the black and white.

he wasn't posing he had just woken up and was looking in the cabinet for Savannah's breakfast hehe

gag

2008-06-27T12:09:00.000-07:00

Elizabeth smart - "miracles do happen"- click pic for story

when I saw this I swear I wanted to throw up, can someone tell me why we idolize the wealthy? Her story is N O T H I N G special, she was kidnapped and was in her own damn town, how stupid is she? The chick was out in the open walking around not being held back with any kind of weapons, she could have ran free at any point in time, oh right she was brain washed and scared, well guess what, her story's nothing special then, so why do they keep up with her? A miracle? No, your captors were dumb and even though you were dumb too it was only a matter of time until someone saw your ass walking the streets in your own damn town, GAWD am I the only one seeing the flaw in this? And then she goes on saying "of course I tried to escape but they said they would kill my family"...please God, please let my daughter not be dumb enough to stay with a captor or abuser because they threaten to do harm...worse than the harm they are already doing...um gee the police cant help they would be free if I got away and they would come get me PLEASE tell me someone else sees the flaw,Another girl was kidnapped around the time she was I think she was 6 or 7, the little girl chewed through the rope and ran home, now THATS a story, but didn't get anymore attention than the local news, but this is nationwide news? I seriously don't get why this became such a huge story, the only reason I can find is that they had money. Its not inspiring, if anything its discouraging to me, if my daughter was kidnapped by some hicks and they took her an hour from home, I would hope she would be able to think, "what the hell? I know where I am, they don't have any weapons, I'm outta here" and would run like hell screaming for help, I would hope that she would know to kick and scream bloody murder and that if they have a gun if you run zig zag they have a slim to none chance of hitting you and most likely wont because they don't want to cause a scene but if you get in that car your most likely going to be hurt. I would hope they wouldnt even be able to get out of the house because she would scream and run, I am going to make sure she knows that, its upsetting that a story about a teen that wasn't at all intelligent or resourceful is what were looking up to, our kids are smarter than that.

info on my 365 project

2008-06-26T20:19:00.000-07:00

so if you follow it please read

I am a chosen one

2008-06-20T19:47:00.000-07:00

I was picked by Jamie to do this ummm...thingy

Four jobs I have held:

- cashier at Walmart
-waitress at a Chinese buffet (buffet king forever, lol des and heather)
-photographer for a few days at a wally world photo studio but had to quit because of lack of daycares that were open late and weekends and the cost :(
-substitute special education instructional assistant-in other words I was a substitute teaching assistant in special ed classrooms, I really loved it and sad that I had to move away and quit that job :(

Four movies I could watch over and over:

-the notebook
-halloween (the original not that remake crap)
-friday the 13th
-a nightmare on elm street

Four places I have lived:

-North Hollywood, California
-Palmdale, California
- Beaumont,Tx
-Katy,Tx

Four TV shows I like:

-Maury
-the peoples court
-king of the hill
-nanny 911

oh yeah I love me some trash tv

Four favorite foods:

-spring rolls
-california rolls
-fried fish (my homemades better than restaurant but I like restaurant too)
-carne asada burrito ( there the best in cali mmmmmmmmmm especially if there are illegals working in the kitchen, I'm not saying it to be rude its true they make the best burritos)

Four places I would rather be:

-cali (just for a visit)
-in our dream home
-on vacation
-shooting at a kick ass location

I'm suppose to pick 4 people to do this but danget I'm to lazy to do the links right now so ummmmmmmm

Kathy
Heather
Tia
Jenera

would you do this please I'll link ya later!

hey everyone

2008-06-20T12:36:00.000-07:00

I am switching to nikon so I am without a cam for a little while (a week at the most), after the switch I'm going to start my 365 over again and focus on Savannah so please keep visiting that blog

on another note I was watching Dora this morning and a sick thought came to mind, you know how her backpack goes "yum yum yum deliciousioso" whenever she put something in...I wonder if her toilet does that

LOL ewwww, I have a sick mind that obviously gets very bored

happy fathers day 2008

2008-06-15T20:41:00.001-07:00

I love you dearest, your a wonderful husband and father and I thank God everyday that our daughter has you as her daddy... you never hesitate to put our needs before your own, you work your butt off everyday to make us happy without hesitation, I hope you had a good fathers day hon, you deserve it!

UPDATED: Dont act rude to me ,I keeps it real :P

2008-06-14T11:48:00.000-07:00

I've always been the type that speaks her mind, and I've never been afraid to do so, , this weekend (my husbands weekend which is Tuesday Wednesday) we went out to eat dinner and savannah started to cry because I wouldn't let her suck on the menu, and this lady just looked at us and gave us a cold stare and she stared for a good 20 seconds before I said "what? do you want me to leave the freakin restaurant because my babies crying?" she turned her head quick, I think she may have complained to the manager but they didn't say anything to us, come on its IHOP, get off your damn high horse lady.The next day we went swimming at our neighborhood pool and right after we went to get some cold stone straight from the pool as is, my husband put a shirt on and had his shorts on and I had my board shorts on and a bikini top because I had forgot to bring a shirt, we went in and as soon as we walked in this little teeny bopper worker whispered to her co worker, as soon as she did that I said "Excuse me I need to be served by someone else I'm not going to deal with disrespect, I don't play like that" as soon as I did that she looked scared and worried I was going to tell her boss.Whenever I "keep it real" my husband always brings up the chappelles show skits, as a warning I guess but I don't like to be disrespected, people do it all the time and I've never been one to accept it you treat me with respect and I'll do the same to you. I especially hate sneaky rudeness you know the kind where if you call that person out on it they'll most likely deny it ugh I hate that. I originally asked if I was risking anything by speaking up for myself or "keeping it real" but I've since change this post, don't risk acting rude to me if you don't want me to respond, period. I think the people that act rude need to change THEIR ways, they risk getting into an altercation with a psycho much more than I do by responding to their rudeness, and more often than not its not a crazy that acts so disrespectfully but rather a person that wasn't taught manners, I figure I'm giving them a taste of their own medicine.

Thought just bounce in my head...

2008-06-10T09:17:00.000-07:00

"Jesus Walks
God show me the way because the Devil trying to break me down
Jesus Walks with me
The only thing that I pray is that me feet don't fail me now
Jesus Walks
And I don't think there is nothing I can do now to right my wrongs
Jesus Walks with me
I want to talk to God but I'm afraid cause we ain't spoke in so long"

I am a Christian, I'm not ashamed to say so,but I would consider myself an "emergency room Christian", God doesn't come up until something really bad happens and then you better believe I'm on my knees praying my butt off oh and church on holidays forgot to add that, I don't want to be like that but I have problems finding an area in Christianity that can work for me and bring me to a relationship with God, , I don't want to believe that we just die and rot in the ground, but sometimes, I do think that...and it scares me. Theres just so much about Christianity that has been corrupted by man that its so hard to grasp for something to believe in, the hatred the animosity I don't believe that you have to follow a set standard of a church to get into heaven and I don't think its right that people judge so much, telling someone their going to hell isn't exactly going to get you into heaven, so why do so many do it? Stopping others from what you personally believe is wrong is not Christian! we are not suppose to judge, this crap about gay marriage drives me up the wall .God wants marriage to be between a man and a woman, we need to uphold the sanctity of marriage. So that means I can meet someone for an hour get plastered and get married, and hold up the sanctity of marriage But two people that have committed themselves to each other but just happen to be gay are corrupting the sanctity? Makes no sense to me. The death penaty isnt illegal, killing a person is one of the 10 commandments, thou shalt not kill. Did we forget that? The bible has so many rules that we today don't follow, we aren't suppose to be corrupted by worldly things, but we are I know I am, does that automatically get me a first class ticket to hell? If not then why does being gay get you a ticket, no sins greater than another right? To me so many use their religion when its convenient, I'm going to go do this sinful thing but then on Sunday I'm going to ask for forgiveness so that gives me the right to judge you. It drives me up the wall so much that I cant latch on to any one church, because theres just so much, well, added in by mans ignorance and hatred. The bible teaches us not to judge to love one another, I believe that, so I think my best bet is to try to find my own faith within myself and not depend on a church to help me become closer to God.

/rant

hey everyone wanna win a prize?

2008-06-08T19:40:00.000-07:00

my blog buddy Jenera has a contest going on right now to win a photo mug, go enter!

enter here

finally updated 365

2008-06-08T18:34:00.000-07:00

Sorry it took so long I've been taking pictures but to busy and lazy to upload and write.

this is not the business

2008-06-01T19:27:00.000-07:00

I have been a member of a lot of different message boards. They've given me entertainment as well as information, but I'm getting tired of them. Theres just something about the internet that makes a person bolder and ruder than they would be in person, especially on message boards where click's usually form and high school drama ensues.Its even brought out bad in me, remember back in what? feb, that drama started about solids and bragging parents? Truth is, I could careless what a person feeds their kid or when they do it and I don't care about bragging hell what parent doesn't brag? But I was about to pull my hair out if I had to read one more time about how a mom was feeding their kid solids at 1 months because "they were just so advanced" it was the fact that they were flat out lying to excuse their wanting to get started on solids early that annoyed the mess out of me and when people came in asking if it was ok to feed their baby solids these certain women would advise them to go ahead and start cause they did even though most pediatricians are against it until a certain age, would that annoy you or am I just weird?. anyways yeah, message boards are not the business (heh my sister use to say that), anyways I need to connect with other people and not just any type of people I plan to go back to school in the fall but thats not enough, I think its time for me to meet other mommies, I think I'm going to join ...a mommy group...

sigh my babys growing up...

2008-05-29T21:13:00.000-07:00

Isn't it amazing how much a child can change in their first year... they go from this helpless blob of cuteness to little toddlers, its overwhelming... I feel like I'm missing things it goes by so darn fast. My little snuggie doo is eating real solids now :(

I dont know what I was thinking chopping up the strawberries, ok I do I just wanted to try out the new chopper

my chunkster

so cute it almost made me forget the huge mess I was gonna have to clean...almost

"Time to go pops"

nothing special about this one I just like it so I'm showin it off, I love how glossy her eyes look, I didn't do anything to them just sharpened them a little.

you know now that I look at it

2008-05-27T16:40:00.001-07:00

her toy boxes are kinda dinky looking...

F*CK he looks good...

2008-05-26T15:09:00.000-07:00

But I like the original version much better, its one of my fav songs on the album, I like Rhianna but I think the duet kinda killed it.His duet with Kanye West was MUCH better.

heres the nursery...

2008-05-23T19:46:00.000-07:00

I'm only 5 months late..and its still not completely done, but I figured I'd show it anyhow since I promised to do so months ago.

It was really hard to fit all the room in the shot with my zoom lens, her book shelfs a work in progress I'm putting sparklies on it so it can match the rest of the fun fairy theme, and since we didn't do a dr. Seuss room I had to get some abc and 1,2,3 posters.

her armoire

I don't know where to put that darn shelf, it cost like 35 bucks on ebay...I thought it was a full sized book shelf :/ yeah I felt like an idiot its cute and all but so not worth 35 bucks. The containers are there for toys, if your wondering where all the toys are just look in my living room.

I need to put pictures in those :P but aren't the frames cute?

her name on the wall...

her bed spread...I forgot to take a photo of her crib but everyones seen it in other photos

shes the queen of her castle, I love how tan she looks in this photo :)

And thats the tour

from this

to what you see now...one of the best parts of having a daughter is getting to do a girly bedroom for her, I have been having a ball. my husbands jealous and says were gonna have a boy next and hes going to go spider man crazy...

anyone else hearing about this BPA thing?

2008-05-21T20:51:00.000-07:00

Its suppose to be very prevalent in bottles and sippy cups made of polycarbonate and COULD lead to a number of developmental issues or just negative issues, we'll leave it at that because I'm to lazy and go back to what I read right now, man this stuff keeps coming out but if you look into it well 90% of all americans have trace amounts in their bodies because they use this stuff for everything they coat cans with it plastic drinking cups, go look at a plastic cup in your cupboard right now if it has a number 7 ,6 or 3 on it its known to leak harmful chemicals, did you find any with those numbers cause I sure as heck did... theres so much they use it for even plastic toys and teethers... so its scary that their saying its dangerous but at the same time they say eating subway and changing the cat liter while pregnant is dangerous and while it is, the risk of it is just seriously so small its kinda idiotic to worry, so I'm on the fence because, well, this is my child and we have these kids popin breast at 8 period by 9 and so many cases of autism and so many other things that just wasn't happening back in the day so you have to wonder if there is more of a risk than were realizing with the stuff we use to make our daily lives a little easier.UGH, as you can tell by my last post I'm trying to lighten up and not worry so much but damn when crap like this comes out you just want to keep your kid in a plastic bubble

So what would you do? Throw away all your bottles, sippy cups, teethers and toys that are suppose to be a risk or just keep using them? I'm just asking out of curiosity, I'm going to go buy her new bottles/sippy cups right after I write this (I'm not losing anything bru is giving refunds on any bottles you bring to them that contain bpa) I'm just wondering if I'm doing any better on my over protective germaphobia? Ok, Ok, I know the answer, I'm not, but really, to me its just not worth the possible risk, yes, I ate lunch meat while pregnant, and not just any lunch meat I was the subway queen, but I don't know I cant relax about stuff like this, theres something causing all these issues with todays children and I think its all the foreign crap were putting into our bodies.Dont worry I'm not becoming a crunchy mommy my daughters a disposable diaper wearin, bottle/sippy cup drinkin', crib sleepin', vaccinated little diva so I have no room to judge or point fingers, but I think I am going to be more careful with my choices. How do you feel about this? I'd love to know.

**UPDATE: Just looked it up her sippy cups are bpa free so it looks like thats just more of a reason to completely wean her from her bottle, I know she seems young (8 months) but these cups are kinda in between their easy to use and shes been doing great with them so I guess I'll just completely go sippy**

Well I guess you have to slip up and suceed every now and then

2008-05-21T11:48:00.001-07:00

I cant stand American idol, sorry I just think its a cattle drive and the "winners" are lucky to get 5 mins added to the 15 minutes they get for being on the show. Before I get stones thrown from all the a.i. lovers, think about it every season which is what 2 a year now? you jump ship to the next group and don't even help the last winner become a star by oh I don't know buying their albums or at least going to their shows(Taylor Hicks ring a bell? where the hell is he? he just won ), its crazy to me but every now and then they hit the jack pot I will admit, I am a big Kelly Clarkson fan and Carrie Underwood seems to be doing very well and holy hell I think they've done it again! This girl Jordin Sparks, I didn't even know she won because the big hoopla on her season was the bad singing hair guy, see forgot his name already...but man shes awesome! Isn't it sick that I don't even watch the show yet I know the winners and the losers...how the hell does that happen? Anyways back to my point, I think shes going to be another one of their rare stars made. I love the "no air" song...love love love it. I just cant bring myself to buy her album or even steal it online...believe me I liked about 8 of Kelly Clarksons songs before I bought her album, it just makes me feel like I'm feeding the beast...

Artist Site

Would you concider me a germaphobe?

2008-05-18T11:19:00.000-07:00

I was cleaning our bathrooms right now (we have 2 so I always do them both back to back to get the hell of doing them out of the way) and I would go and use hand sanitizer between cleaning...like I'd scrub the bathtub go to the kitchen put some hand sanitizer on go back scrub the toilet use hand sanitizer, sanitize the toilet, use hand sanitizer. I make my husband throw away plungers. And I don't trust him to clean anything, I'd love to be one of those women who come home to see their husbands have cleaned their house, but in all honesty, I'd be pissed, I get worried when he makes my daughters bottles and the whole time I'm thinking..did he rinse out the bottle and nipple with hot water? Even though it just came out of the dishwasher...I didn't use to be like this...but ever since my daughter was born I am totally freaked out by germs and those damn commercials for cleaners that show the imaginary germs that you clean up with their cleaners, yeah those aren't helping me either, and I have this incredible fear that Savannah will get thrush, ever since I found out what it was I have been freaked and take away and sanitize any toy she has that drops to the floor. anybody else get like this after their children were born? Does it subside?

Pick a winner, baby

2008-05-17T20:22:00.002-07:00

I'm not sure if she knew what she was doing, but it made me laugh.

Mildred Loving dies at 68

2008-05-14T10:54:00.000-07:00

:(

heres the story

more pictures

2008-05-12T13:39:00.000-07:00

sorry I know, I just went out to the park on mothers day

The best of the day are on my other blog - project 365 - but I can only post one a day there.

I'm proud so I'm double posting

2008-05-09T20:04:00.001-07:00

Tried out another storyboard

WARNING: photo share

2008-05-07T20:10:00.000-07:00

I have been keeping my photography in my other blog but since I'm restricted to one shot per day for the project I decided to post here as well today

Today was my first time trying out swing shots, I've done it before but today I tried out some techniques I was given and let me tell you it was hard, it can be tough to get a child mid swing and still have him/her in focus, so I followed some tips and set the focus and took the photo when she reached that point and it seemed to work,little did I know that was the easy part, I forgot about my 7 month old model...

perfect freakin shot and I catch her mid B L I N K! ARG!

Here she is giving me the stink face

And of course the shot where she doesn't seem to care for swinging at all

But the good shots made it all worth it

I'm not sure how old this park is but the seats were faded which I LOVED, they give the pictures a little something, what do you think?

Scattergories

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1. What is your name ?................Joe'Etta

2. 4 letter word..............................joke

3. Vehicle: ......................................jeep

4.City / Neighborhood: ................jamestown

5. Boy Name: ............................... justin

6. Girl Name: ................................ jessica

7. Occupation: .............................janitor

8. Something you wear:.............. jeans

9. Food: .........................................jelly beans

10. Found in a bathroom:............junk? lol IT COUNTS

11. Reason for Being Late..........john (toilet)

12. Something you shout: ........... JAM ON! (in a michael jackson voice, doesnt work otherwise)

13. Animal:.....................................jelly fish

14. Body part...................................jaw

15. Word to describe you:............juicy...LOL...ew

**anyone can do it**

Does anyone remember candy cigarrettes?

2008-05-02T23:21:00.000-07:00

and when you blew on them smoke came out... man looking back the tobbacco company WAS trying to trap me...
I never started smoking though, maybe because they tasted so bad.

I also

2008-04-30T12:58:00.000-07:00

Updated my profile.

I added

2008-04-30T09:14:00.000-07:00

An email subscription to both my blogs, so if you like to keep up with when I post something new you can get email updates...you know you want to! :p, I also added some of my flickr friends blogs to my list of blogs I like to scope out,they take A M A Z I N G photos, take a look!

How could you? I found the evidence in your book bag...

2008-04-27T14:01:00.000-07:00

I always thought a wife looking over the bank statements would only get angry if she saw sneak charges to strip clubs or maybe to a bar or things of that nature. Me? I check the bank statement and get angry if I catch random sneak charges to the comic book store...you know...I didn't see that one coming...

Why didnt I think anything was wrong with this?

2008-04-26T16:10:00.000-07:00

After Kathy told me about PICA in my last post, I decided to look up corn starch addictions...never in a million years did I think it would turn up anything, BUT IT DID, I'm not the only one! There are people out there that eat a box a day (I was up to a box every 2 1/2 days so I'm not to much better) and have been eating it for years upon years one woman 15 years... For as long as I can remember I've craved corn starch, I remember as a child my aunt giving it to me (she eats it too) and I've always craved it but my mom wouldn't let me just sit there and eat corn starch, but out of the house there was no one to stop me. Why didn't I think there was anything seriously wrong with craving corn starch, its not a food. *sigh* I'm looking it up now, it sounds like I may have Amylophagia, I'm going to keep looking it up and will prolly see a dr,I've gotta make another appt for a second boob u/s, which I've been putting off because of the stupid co pay. maybe I can do both in the same day, spice the Dr.s day up. I'll keep everyone updated

I cant take it...

2008-04-25T20:44:00.000-07:00

I want some corn starch so bad... :(

Sorry I've been MIA again

2008-04-24T20:39:00.000-07:00

Savannahs teething, enough said, LOL, and my cousin Shazia had her son today, were going to go see him next week, they live in OK.Besides that theres nothing new going on, sorry I still don't have pics of the room, I haven't been able to get it done,even on my husbands days off, things should be back to normal once the tooth pops. But happy birthday to my little cousin, Emmanuel the 2nd :)

I took a really cute pic for day 2

2008-04-22T16:54:00.001-07:00

http://jtmproject365.blogspot.com/

Hm how cool am I with it?

2008-04-21T17:09:00.000-07:00

So we all know a few days ago I took down a joke because I wasnt sure if it was "co ol" by everyone,but I also said that I personally found it funny and I liked generalization jokes ect,and skip said to me in a comment "you need to be OK with a blog going the other way too" to which I replied of course I am...but now I wonder.I belong to a few groups on myspace and there was an argument going on in one,it got pretty heated, cussing name calling ect, I'm being entertained by the sidelines until one of the girls says to the other "you need some scissors, a perm & some hot oil treatments..." to the other girl ( one was white the other black and had dreadlocks) I'm thinking wow that kinda went to far, but I stayed by the sidelines, the black girl said something along the lines of "how dare you you dont know anything about black hair" and someone else responded with "I hate when race is brought into it, you should be ashamed" ok I had to respond "ummmm the other girl brought in race when she told the girl she needed a perm and hot oil treatments." to which I got the response of "oh nothing was meant by it, I have kinky haired family members" o_0.HELLOOOOOO THATS OFFENSIVE AS F*CK!I didnt say anything,I let it go,until I came back today to see the same girl calling the other girl "nappy headed" and saying her dreadlocks were nasty, discusting, unsanitary ect and I couldnt take it I had to respond and ask her to stop already because it was really offensive, and then it got me to thinking of my blog and the post.So I ask, is it the same thing? I personally dont think it is I mean I think theres a difference between joking and trying to tear someone down with generalizations,am I right? or am I a hypocrite?I mean I remember going into the store before and I kid you not the was something in a box called "cracker food" and I laughed and told my husband "look the food of your people" and we laughed and I later said " I'm going to buy you some" and he said "the second you do I'm going to buy the biggest bucket of chicken and the biggest watermelon I can find" and we cracked our butts up,so I ask,is it the same? I think it has a lot to do with the way its said, I mean, if I had said to my husband in an angry voice "hey get your h*nky ass over here and eat some of this here cracker food" I dont think the situation would turn out the same.So I ask IS THERE A DIFFERENCE? I'm feeling like an idiot right now because I was super offended by that girl after just saying I was ok with generalization jokes,tell me does it have to do with the way you say it or am I a huge hypocrite.

365 is up and running

2008-04-21T15:19:00.000-07:00

http://jtmproject365.blogspot.com/

and I just want to say everyone sucks for not playing family feud!!

Its time to play family feud

2008-04-20T20:38:00.000-07:00

I puffy heart family feud,lets play! Ok I answered the questions now everyone answer the same questions but you cant repeat my answers or the answers of the person that replied above you (leave your answers as a comment to this post,you dont have to copy the questions just number it 1-17 and put your answers) lets see how long this can go before people run out of answers,if you do, of course just type pass.

1) SOMETHING YOU MIGHT FIND UNDER THE SEAT OF A CAR
papers

2) EXCUSE SOMEONE WOULD GIVE TO GET OUT OF WORK:
sick

3) REASON A COUPLE WOULD WANT TO GET MARRIED:
love

4) SOMETHING YOU WOULD FIND IN A BATHROOM:
soap

5) A PHRASE WITH THE WORD "SHOW" IN IT.
show me the monnnneeeeeeyyyyy

6) SOMETHING YOU WOULD BUY IN A HURRY:
condoms? LOL

7) ANOTHER NAME FOR "SEX":
whoopie

8) SOMETHING A PERSON WOULD PREFER TO HAVE "HOT":
food

9) REASON A PERSON MIGHT BREAK UP WITH THEIR PARTNER:
infidelity

10) SOMETHING YOU HAVE TO SIT DOWN TO DO:
eat

11) WHY AN OLDER WOMAN WOULD PREFER A YOUNGER MAN:
looks

12) REASON YOU WOULD WEAR A HELMET:
avoid accidents

13) REASON A PERSON WOULD USE A COMPUTER
work

14) REASON A PERSON WOULD GO TO A DOCTOR:
check up

15) SOMETHING YOU WOULD FIND AT A BAR:
beer

16) WHAT A MAN MIGHT BUY BEFORE A DATE:
gum

17) SOMETHING THAT REQUIRES BATTERIES:
remote

Project 365

2008-04-20T19:40:00.000-07:00

So I have this expensive as crap camera, accessories and a desire to one day be a child photographer...why the hell am I not taking pictures? I'm guessing because I, for one, don't feel an obligation to and two am so side tracked by my baby (shes at the age where shes still reeeaaalllyyy dependant on me and wants constant attention and play time) so its hard for me to accomplish anything.But I really want to improve my skills and I really want to get everything out of my camera so I've decided to start my own project 365.I've heard a lot about it and decided to look it up, the rules are: you take a photo everyday for a year documenting your day,something you learned,what you did that day or just something that caught your attention. At the end of the year you'll be able to go back and see what you were doing, interested in, bothered by whatever on any given day.Oh a catch is it can only be one photo per day,take as many as you want you can only choose one for the project.It sounds pretty cool so starting tomorrow - APRIL 21ST 2008 - I am going to start my own project 365, and to not flood my blog with pictures I'll give an update once a week. Anyone else wanna join me?

**UPDATE , I actually decided to make a whole new blog to dedicate to the project I think I'm still going to do a once a week update but this way I can really hold myself accountable,so if you want to see you can just click on about me and the other blog should be listed**

Its been 4 days since I last had

2008-04-19T21:48:00.001-07:00

Corn starch,I really really want some,man this is hard. I couldn't imagine trying to quit smoking.

So I took down my last post

2008-04-19T18:20:00.001-07:00

I sensed people getting offended .The last thing I want to do is offend or make someone uncomfortable. Ummmm yeah, I think I'll just leave it at that...

***UPDATE:My husband just explained this to me, he told me if say Jon Stewart told the joke it would be funny but not me lol,I mean I know people found it funny and related there were hundreds that commented and said so, its just some jokes cant be told by everyone,he said its kinda like an outsider telling the jokes,its seen as offensive and I can understand that I mean I would be like what the hell if Jeff Foxworthy did Dave Chapplelles stand up. I seriously didn't think about that, so to anyone it bothered I'm sorry...I do want to point out though that I do find things like George Lopez and Dave Chappelle to be hilarious, I couldn't live my life comfortably not being able to laugh at such things**

You know what I forgot to do

2008-04-18T17:20:00.000-07:00

Show pics of the nursery,we left to visit the inlaws before we got everything and it totally slipped my mind.I'll take some this weekend I've got some of her laundry to put away and a few pics to hang so I have to straighten up first.

**UPDATE: I'm going to have to wait till my husbands weekend, the only chance I'd have to hang things up and such would be when shes asleep and she naps in her bed so that wont work give me till wed please :)**

If you visited my blog today

2008-04-17T18:57:00.000-07:00

You saw it under construction,I'm all done now :)

My new camera....

2008-04-14T08:00:00.000-07:00

I ended up getting a k10d instead of a k20d, for many reasons,one main one being price, another being my level of skill, the k10d alone has so much going on, I knew I would have wasted money having all those extras and having no idea how to use them,the k10's suppose to have much more of a learning curve,so we will see how it goes. It would have been cool to have that k20 though....one day :P

heres a pic from my first go with the new cam

I have so much to learn,I hope I can improve,on another note I had to quit my new job :(, the cost of daycare would have eaten us alive (we needed nights and weekends) and would not have been worth it. I was doing it more for the experience than the money but..seriously it just wasn't worth it.SOOOOO I'm going to start my own business,its deff going to be a slow start I'm working on a portfolio right now and researching it.But I think I can do it.Wish me luck.

Ok the story

2008-04-13T16:15:00.000-07:00

ok, so I called abes of maine to order my k10, the man peter, was very nice that is until he got my cc number, he then hung up on me mid sentence, I was asking if he planned to send me a confirmation email. I immediately called back to cancel, (hang up on me before giving me a confirmation number? thats not cool.) I got another man this time Jim, he apologized and said he would fix the situation and send a confirmation email. I say ok, but I'm still feeling a little uncomfortable so I go online and look up reviews, I see so many good ones so Im feeling like an idiot for worrying that is until I come to one review that says they pay for their reviews CRAP, then I get the confirmation email WRONG ADDRESS . I then call to cancel again.Its been a grand total of 15 minutes since talking to them. The salesman tells me you cant cancel its already been shipped...in 15 minutes? He talks to me with an attitude and I get angry at this point he says he will transfer me to the billing department or something.I get the same man from earlier, Jim he says well its in the truck we cant cancel it, my husband gets on the phone and yells some profanities about how could it have possibly been shipped in 15 minutes,the man clearly get scared and says ok I'll run out to the truck and get the package.He comes back a few minutes later and says I just had to go through all the boxes but I got your box and I'm going to cancel your order.TERRIFIC, I say can I have a confirmation number please,"no I cant give you one, I'll email it to you." "well why cant you just give me one now? " FINE he says and he gives me a number.A little later I get a cancellation email that has a confirmation number as well.There two different numbers....CRAP...I try not to worry,he said he canceled it. 2 hours pass I check my email guess whats in the inbox? A SHIPMENT CONFIRMATION EMAIL!!!I freak and call to ask why I just got this email, the salesman says call back tomorrow the customer service line is closed. Ok fine.I call the next day and say " my order was canceled but I still got a shipment confirmation email." the man says "thats not my problem I'll transfer you to customer service" I'm put on hold for literally 5 minutes and then mysteriously disconnected,I call back it happens again I tried this 3 times before I realize I'm getting the run around.I call fedex to ask what I should do since I'm being shipped an order that was canceled.They run the tracking number they tell me, the number doesn't exist.HUH? OH I should add my debit card was charged IMMEDIATELY.Well if they charged my card they have to have sent something right? I again try to get in contact with someone that can help me, again given the run around, put on hold for indefinite times and being disconnected.I finally get a hold of someone by saying I was a lawyer calling on my behalf :) I get a manager! he says yeah the shipping was a mistake I see here on our records that Jim went to the truck to get your item off of it.He then says ok I'll cancel your order right now...ummm I thought my order was canceled when Jim heroically fetched my box from the truck the night before? I have a very strong feeling my orders not going to be canceled this time either, I again got no confirmation number, so that was a big indication not to mention the manager questioning whether or not I was really a lawyer. I should add I very quickly learned abe ain't in no maine! lol their thick Brooklyn accents kinda gave it away. I cant even tell you how scary it is arguing with someone that sounds and talks like Tony Soprano. I did a search of their business name too comes back as being located in Brooklyn, thats not to bad but it also comes out they go by different addresses and different business names to trick the BBB!

The current BBB report states,

Name: Abe's Electronics Center, Inc.
Phone: (732) 225-1777
Fax: (732) 379-5026
Address: 5 Fernwood Avenue
Edison, NJ 08837
Website: www.abesofmaine.com
Original Business Start Date: January 1979
Local Start Date: October 2000
Principal: Mr. Abe Mosseri, President
Customer Contact: Mr. Abe Mosseri, President - (732) 225-1777
TOB Classification: Electronic Equipment & Supplies-Dealers
BBB Accreditation: This organization is not a BBB Accredited business.

Additional DBA Names
Abe's of Maine

Customer Experience
Based on BBB files, this company has an unsatisfactory record with the BBB due to a pattern of complaints and has failed to correct the underlying reason for the complaints.

The current search results for 'abesofmaine.com' with the BBB only shows two results. The above file in Edison, NJ and the original file in MA which states,
Mail sent to the company on 12/23/2005 was returned by the U.S. Postal Service as Undeliverable as Addressed.

The address once listed by the BBB for 'Abe's of Maine' in NY no longer appears in the reports or the record searches.

However, Whitepages.com still shows a business there,
Family Photo & Video
1959 Coney Island Ave
Brooklyn, NY 11223-2328
(718) 645-1298
Company:
Family Photo & Video

This address at '1957 Coney Island Ave. Brooklyn, NY' no longer appears in the BBB records as stated above. So per BBB records these two businesses, 'Abe's of Maine' and 'Family Photo & Video' do not appear to be affiliated. But when you receive email from them the Brooklyn address is given under the Abes of maine name

While doing all this research and freaking out that Im going to lose 700 dollars I read a review where a man was going through a similar situation as mine and he had his friends call them non stop they then gave him his money back within minutes.So I figured I'd give it a try.So I round up some friends and have them my husband and myself call them non stop and ask where my refund was. After a few minutes of doing this I get a cancellation confirmation email, HAH,I also get a call from a manager named Jason.He says ok your cancellation was put through (why wasn't it put through the other two times?) he then says if you keep calling were going to charge 30$'s to your order for each call we receive. I say how can you do that if my order was already cancelled?He tells me we have your card number, we will just recharge it, you have your ways of getting us we have our ways of getting you. NO I'm not kidding he said that to me. I say look all I want is my money back I'll leave you guys alone the second its returned he then says to me "you must be slow, I already told you your money was refunded" I say "well when will it show up on my account" he says give it till Friday (it was Tuesday )I say that seems like an awful long time. He then says to me "man you must really need this money"(in a condescending way) I say "YES I REALLY DO!" lol. We then get off the phone with the understanding that my money would be returned by Friday.I have hope:) I go online to leave negative reviews of course.I have to warn people of this. I get a call from abes of maine.ummm ok? its the vice president of the company...wow...he says I want to fix the problem you had with us,blah blah just super nice then he drops the bomb, I saw your review on resellerrating.com...oooooooh I get it they need something from me now.I tell him how I was treated so badly by the other man, he tells me "I know I was right there and you know what I told him immediately "what are you doing? shes a customer you don't do that" I'm thinking why is it his demeanor didn't change at all during the convo then? But I say to him "Ok I'll take the reviews down just give me my money back".NO JOKE 3 HOURS LATER MY MONEY WAS RETURNED!I took the reviews down...but I replaced it with a different ones.Hey I kept my end of the deal :)

I do have my camera now, I ordered it from adorama,smooth transaction,I'm super happy.I plan to take Savannahs pics tonight so I'll post later.

Sorry I've been mia

2008-04-10T20:02:00.000-07:00

I got swindled for 700 dollars and it really really depressed me,I got my money back (I'll tell everyone the story later, its a really good one) but it just put me at a state where I didn't want to do anything I still mothered my child of course but I got behind on housework spending time with my husband and just being myself. I was consumed with stress and just I don't know a feeling of embarrassment that I had been so stupid. Not to mention a terrible feeling was tied to something I enjoyed so much so...it wasn't a good week for me. On another note I started my job today,it went great I really like it.Theres a lot to learn its a little overwhelming .I took photos for two families(or would I call them clients?) and they came out pretty good :).We also need to find Savannah a daycare,I have yet to find one up to my standards, we tried childtime,kindercare and a couple of other less known places,they just didn't seem right.I think I may be to less strict with my search.We found a nice home based daycare,before you guys say anything its licensed and is frequently inspected by the state.I'm still not sure though I'd rather have her in a more structured environment where they try to teach your children things,both of the known daycares we went to have set out curriculum (yes even for the 6 month olds)...any ideas? we have until Sunday to decide.

I'm cameraless!!!

2008-04-05T22:31:00.000-07:00

I mailed out my camera today...*sigh* I miss it,my new cam wont be here till the end of next week.My husband suggested a bunch of things for us to do next week(has the week off) and its making me even sadder, I wont have my camera to take pictures, just my dinky ole Kodak point and shoot which I swear is the worst camera on earth (it seriously takes a minute for the shutter to snap)This is going to be tough, what was I thinking selling before I had my replacement...oh thats right the money :P

CAMERA SOLD

2008-04-04T10:34:00.000-07:00

k20 here I come!

Selling my camera

2008-04-03T23:50:00.000-07:00

I've decided to sell my k100d super camera to save towards the drool worthy k20 . Its in great condition and I'm including the 18-55 kit lens and a manual 50 2.0 lens that I'm throwing in for free because I personally don't care for manual lenses both lenses are scratch and fungus free sharp and working in perfect condition, the manual lens has a faded body because it is a 20 year old lens, but your getting it for free beggars cant be choosers :P. I bought the camera for about 600 dollars new back in feb and am parting with it for 385.00 shipping included. I'm also including uv lens filters on both lenses . Also both lenses include front and rear caps. All accessories will be included including the original owners manual. Please email me at merrellmichael @ gmail .com if your interested. I'd like to sell it through pay pal.

**please note the photos I've recently taken were not taken with the lenses I'm including, I bought a different lens which I am keeping ,also please keep in mind you cant always produce pictures like mine straight out of the camera, I often edit them .Oh and the manual lens has to be used in manual focus mode...I will give you directions if you choose to buy it**

heres a stock photo of the camera and the 18-55 kit lens I cant get an actual photo of the camera because it is the camera I use to take pictures lol

manual lens included for free-

here are photos straight out of the camera with the kit lens thats included no editing

**I erased the pictures from its original url so they are no longer available to see **

interview update, update

2008-04-03T15:26:00.000-07:00

Well I'm tentatively hired,they just have to call all of my references.Kinda nervous about that I hope they even remember me I have jobs dated back from 04,I'm going to call a restaurant I worked at and remind her who I am in case they call her lol, I don't want her to say "who?". Again wish me luck I should hear back Monday...I hate waiting.

Interview update

2008-04-03T13:00:00.000-07:00

It went absolutely perfectly except the woman was hiring for the east end of Houston (we live towards the west end) soooo she was nice enough to arrange with me to have an interview with the coordinator with the west end stores at 4 today(she really liked me and said she would scoop me up if I wasn't so far :/)...I'm so stinkin nervous ugh, what if the next interviewer doesn't care for me, wish me luck! I'll update when we get back.

I found a place YESSSSS!

2008-04-03T02:30:00.001-07:00

Wow this shot is amazing...and don't let my husband fool you he did nothing, I set up the shot with a tripod!

Finally a family shot

Her infamous "mommy your so silly" snort slash nose wrinkle laugh.

she was sitting on something

***PLEASE CLICKY THEM**

I found a place, I found a place...only problem is...I only got about 4 really good shots,it was upsetting.I guess I had an idea in my head how I wanted the pictures to come out and they just didn't.I know I need to develop my skills more, I now get what they mean when they say it isn't the camera but the person behind it. I 'am improving I'm not going to completely knock myself I think I take some pretty decent pictures but it can get frustrating when you just CANT get the shot right.On another note I have an interview tomorrow to work at a portrait studio,wish me luck I'm really nervous.

--oh did you guys notice I have a watermark now :)--

Is walmart really the evil one?

2008-04-01T09:40:00.000-07:00

I was in the middle of making dinner last night,I was making smothered potatoes (sometimes I like to eat breakfast for dinner) when I realized I didn't have any onions or vegetable oil.Soooo I had to run to the local grocery store. I had already put the potatoes in the pot so I needed to hurry up.We got to the store (which btw is only about 3 mins away)And the second I walk in with my sweatpants and t shirt, I instantly feel under dressed,SHEEZ ,was this place snazzy, whatever I run to the oil isle,a small bottle of vegetable oil 4 DOLLARS, are the kidding me? At Walmart its like 1.99 or maybe even less,and this is store brand, (I don't bother buying name brand vegetable oil) whatever I have no choice,then I see the beloved after holiday clearance bin,anyone who knows me knows I gravitate towards clearance areas,I like deals,.75 percent off for Easter candy, I decide to get some jolly rancher jelly beans.Ok so I go to get in line, theres only ONE REGISTER open and this one line has 4 people in it already! I finally reach the front I get my things scanned and I noticed the jolly ranchers ring up as 2.50, I ask "aren't they suppose to be 75% off",the cashier says "well thats only with the Randalls card", are you kidding me? then he asks"do you want to apply for one" NO, I want to hurry home to get to my dinner already in progress I'm not gonna waste time filling out paper work to get a discount on easter candy which I should automatically get.I didn't say that,I wasn't in the mood I just said no, so I ended up paying full price for Easter candy. Ok people say Walmart destroys small businesses,there an evil corporation.In my honest opinion small businesses destroy small businesses,at least this grocery store is.I have to join your club to save money,at Walmart I don't have to.Why would I waste my time doing that? They should be smart and take that system away, getting the card doesn't guarantee a person will shop there seeing the savings will get a person to shop there.And try not to be so dang expensive, I know they have to be more expensive than big stores like wally world,but 4 dollars for vege oil? My husbands being a nosey butthead and reading my post, he just said Randalls is just an expensive grocery store.I guess people trying to perpetrate, or people that just really don't care to save money will continue to shop at places such as these,but were a one income family on a budget,I'll take my walmart and at times target, thank you very much small business.

We had company

2008-03-28T14:46:00.000-07:00

I keep forgetting to post pictures from when our friends came to visit,they brought their daughter who is a few months younger than Savannah,she was SO cute,Savannah towered over her(its amazing how much difference a few months can make their first year!We had so much fun,I wish they lived closer :(.

Isn't she a cutie

Haha, the babies looked at each other with amazement

the only way to get a picture with them both smiling was to tickle them so I kept getting fingers in the shot

Oh well this one still came out good.

I just like theses two ,looks like shes saying "who me?"

and this one looks like shes saying "I'm innocent"

Sorry for the messy post I accidentally made the pics large and I don't have time to fix it.

Savannahs 6 month appt

2008-03-27T23:45:00.000-07:00

I cant believe shes half a year! I was in shock to find out my little chunker is in the 80th percentile for both her height and weight(that means shes smart right? jk inside joke) We got in a lot of trouble with her pedi,well not literal trouble she didn't call cps or anything,we just got the look and the tone,you know what I mean right.Well the reason we were reprimanded is because my little lady has stopped sleeping at night,don't get me wrong she gets her 8 hours, they just don't start till about 2 or 3 am.When we told this to her Dr. she asked "well whats her bedtime routine?" say wha? My husband and I just kinda gave each other a look like ...should we lie? I winced and told her,"we don't really have one, we just kinda let do her own thing till she falls asleep".She was surprised by this (sometimes I hate being from a nice town full of good parents,puts the bar really high up there, I swear if we lived in downtown Houston the Dr would be asking questions like "well,is your baby being bathed daily?" instead were here and being looked at in shock that we don't have our child on a night time routine)So she gave us some helpful pointers and advice. We started her on a routine and we switched her over to the big bathtub :)

she was a little scared the first time and didn't want daddy to let her go, but tonight she was just a splashing away.We really tried the routine we gave her a nice big dinner we gave her a relaxing bath, let her enjoy it, gave her a bottle dimmed all the lights turned all the tvs off and it worked like a charm,she was out by 11:30, tonight? I'm not so lucky my husbands at work and my patience is running thin, I did everything the same, but instead of being sleepy shes just this hyper little monkey,but I'm sticking to my guns I'm gonna let her cry it out :( wish me luck she usually wins. The Dr. said it will probably be a week until shes used to a routine...oh boy....

***update took about 15 mins but shes sleep,yay me,yeah its close to her normal time of sleeping I know but don't take this from me! ***

My name is Joe and I have a problem

2008-03-24T15:25:00.000-07:00

I'm sure feminists everywhere would say I'm hindering my child in some way but danget I don't care, I like pink and I like tutus and princess crowns and don't get me started on leggings...I'd even say I'm on the obsessed side...

Savannahs "oh mommy, your so silly" look,she does this instead of smiling now a days

make sure you click the picture to see what it says

Here one from last week I took in my front yard...I really want to find a pretty field to take pictures in,I have seen some breathtaking photographs in beautiful fields.I'd give an example but the ones I like are all copyrighted and they search to make sure no ones using their photos so I don't wanna risk it.

Hope everyone had a great Easter!

2008-03-24T12:23:00.001-07:00

ABC'S

2008-03-22T02:51:00.000-07:00

I saw this on another blog and thought I'd give it a go.

ABC's:

A is for age:
22 years old.I started my family young huh :P.I never thought in a million years I'd have a husband and child at this age.I was never one of those people that sowed their wild oats but at times I do feel like I'm missing out on being a crazy kid.But then again I wouldn't trade where I am in life for anything.How many 22 year olds do you know own a house!

B is for booze of choice:
Anything fruity.I'm not a beer kind of girl and I cant stand the taste of alcohol.

C is for career:
I plan to be a teacher.I want to teach the 6th grade.But my education has been put on hold so I can stay at home with my child until shes in pre school,and because daycares freakin expensive!

D is for your dog's name:
I don't have any animals but if I did have a dog I'd name it Molly or Theodore.Can you tell I want a dog?

E is for essential items you use/love everyday:
Ummm computer? I don't know...

F is for favorite song(s) at the moment:
I'm not up to date with music.I don't really listen to the radio so I don't really have a favorite song at the moment

G is for favorite games:
I like all games,my husband and I played battleship when I was pregnant lol.I like card games too,my favorite is speed.

H is for hometown:
Palmdale,Ca

I is for instruments you play:
None but I wish I did

J is for jam or jelly you like:
Grape jelly, cant stand any other kind.

K is for kids:
My Savannah.

L is for last kiss:
I kept kissing Savannah's cheeks earlier,they are so soft I cant get enough

M is for most admired trait:
That I like about myself?Hmmm I can find the positive in really bad situations,I've been through a lot in my life so I know to not take the good for granted.

N is for name of your crush:
I don't have one other than my husband

O is for overnight hospital stays:
Car accident and babies birth.

P is for phobias:
Dirt.Since Savannah's been born the idea of dirt really irks me.Dont get me wrong my house gets messy, but it can only get to a certain point then I cant handle it and must clean it to function,and I watch my husband like a hock, he has a hard time getting away with doing anything messy.I'm sure I've got some deep issues but hey its better than drinking right?

Q is for quotes you like:

R is for biggest regret:
I don't have any,any change in anything in my past would alter my life right now.Plus I believe our past makes us who we are.

S is for sweets of your choice:
I use to be a junk food maniac,I couldn't go a day without candy.Then when I was pregnant anything sweet made me want to barf my brains out so now I don't eat to many sweets anymore,I do drink juice though, cant live without it.

T is for time you wake up:
When my daughter wakes up,it really varies but were late birdies.

U is for underwear:
I wear regular undies,no thongs for me,I don't like the feeling of something in my bum.

V is for vegetables you love:
My favs brussels sprouts mmmm,is it bad if I drench them in butter?

W is for worst habit:
I eat corn starch,no I'm not joking I do.Its yummy to me.It tastes like paper thats the best way I can describe it.I've tried to stop but I swear its like quitting smoking.The cravings overwhelm me.I'm going to stop its a horrible habit,from this day forth no more corn starch.

X is for x-rays you've had:
Not sure how many I know I had them after my accident but I wasn't conscious so I don't know

Y is for yummy food you make:
My husband likes when I make cream of mushroom chicken,I like everything I cook,why else would I cook it?

Z is for zodiac sign:
I'm a leo

ANYONE ELSE CAN DO IT

My child snorts when she laughs

2008-03-20T18:34:00.000-07:00

and laughs when I sneeze. :)

Well happy late St. Patricks Day!

2008-03-17T17:01:00.000-07:00

For the life of me I thought it was the 22nd,but then I figured out its suppose to be the 17th.Little did I know its already past.It was suppose to be on the 15th this year.

"Dublin, Jul 19, 2007 / 10:42 am (CNA).- Religions celebrations for St. Patrick's Day will come two days early in Ireland next year to avoid a conflict with Holy Week.

St. Patrick's Day is usually celebrated March 17, but Ireland's bishops have shifted the feast day, in honor of the national saint, to Saturday, March 15, reported The Associated Press.

Church authorities reportedly spent weeks debating where to move the feast day because March 17, 2008, falls on the second day of Holy Week next year.

The liturgical norms would require the feast day to be moved to the earliest available date after Easter, which would be April 1. But church officials said the Vatican approved the March 15 date in order to minimize conflict with the scheduled civic events.

While religious celebrations honoring St. Patrick are affected, religious and secular authorities stressed this would not change secular festivities. The St. Patrick's Festival Committee in Dublin confirmed that next year's parade would be March 17 as usual. In addition, Monday, March 17, will remain an official day off of work in Ireland.

This marks the first time the date has been changed since 1940. The next conflict with Holy Week is not expected until 2160."

Did everyone miss the memo? cause I dont recall anything said on the 15th.Its not that big of a deal to me since I'm not Irish.Savannahs got a small amount in her on her grandpas side but still not enough for us to make to big of a deal, I just wanted to have her pictures mailed out on time DANGET, oh well, I'm still gonna mail them they will just be late this year.

I didnt get any prints of this one I just thought it was funny,and yes I did take these myself :)

3 day weekends don't work for us

2008-03-16T23:08:00.000-07:00

By the end of a 3 day weekend my husband and I are at each others throats,its not that the love isn't there its just 72 hours with few breaks,for some strange reason it takes its toll.
I'm sad to say we have NEVER made it through a 3 day weekend without an argument of some sort and believe me we FIND things to bicker about,I just had to share this.

me:(standing at the dryer) MERRELL !!! Why is all your stuff on top of the dryer?Geez this is a daily thing, its like the dryers your personal pocket,I swear you find things to put on the dryer
him:(laughing)why use pockets when you have the top of the dryer?
me:(laughing)oh shut up, can you get me a napkin and wet it please, I need to wipe this down
(he brings me ONE square)
me:Ok sweety were gonna do something crazy right now were gonna use something called "logic" I'm trying to wipe down the washer and dryer...logic says this would not be enough,can you PLEASE bring me a napkin.(were incredibly sarcastic with each other)
him:FINEEEE
(He brings me ONE more square)
him:here
(I give him an are you kidding me look)
him:WHAT you said bring me A napkin
me:Fine, can you put this in the kitchen(hand him something) I mean the C O U N T E R R R
(he gets mad walks away)

After this we actually had an argument about being literal, and whether or not he knew I meant one napkin or not ,no, I'm not kidding.The argument eventually got so stupid,we were laughing as we yelled.Eventually we just got distracted and stopped.

Who created 3 day weekends?

**You know whats weird, after I wrote this I thought about it and was tempted to delete it.I don't know why I guess I don't want to give the impression of a "bad" marriage.But I don't want to be one of "those" people.You know the ones that smile in your face and pretend everythings perfect in the world and their shit don't stink when its the farthest thing from the truth.YES, my husband can work a nerve and I know for a fact I can get on his nerves but were human,we get annoyed and fight about stupid things.It doesn't change anything, I love my snuggie doo :P.This is my blog and I'm going to talk about the good the bad and the dumb.I'm not going to give the impression that I'm someone that I'm not.**

oh also have to add I'm not speaking of any of my friends or family for some reason whenever I write something people assume I'm attacking someone
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Picture share

2008-03-15T23:27:00.000-07:00

I bought some angel wings a few days ago so I decided to try them out. I hope my friends and family will let me take pictures of their babies in the wings, there so cute! If your by me and want a picture give me a call :) and Shazia I'm bringing them so be prepared!

My pleasant surprise

2008-03-13T10:30:00.000-07:00

This is a post about children, just a bunch of different things on my mind...first off I'd like to take back what I said a few months ago when I said I didn't want a son, There are people that would kill for a boy or girl or who's children suffered a terrible accident or illness,so I should just be wishing for a healthy child not a certain sex, I see my immaturity in that now in retrospect,but I'm allowed to make mistakes with my words I'm still young :P.So we are tentatively ttc #2 in 3 years.I know my husband would kill for a son but I still secretly want a girl...either way as long as its healthy.Big talk for 3 years down the line huh lol.Another thing sticking in my mind is something said by Maury the other day (yes,I love Maury)A 12 year old didn't know who the father of her child was,I know crazy,but when Maury was telling her story he said "she made the terrible mistake of getting pregnant" as true as that may have been I think thats a horrible thing to say about a baby, any baby not just hers,there a terrible mistake? My heart sank and I don't even know that child or those people. I know her life is over I mean she was a mom before she was a teen but still, a babies a baby,even if a crack head had a child,that child's still a beautiful miracle no matter who conceived it and I REALLY don't want my child ever referred to as "an accident" granted she wasn't planned, shes in no way an accident or a mistake. I was watching Roseanne the other night (NOTHING was on) and it was an episode where she had a pregnancy false alarm and the little boy asked his mom " mom was I an accident?" and she said something that stuck in my mind she said " No honey you were a surprise" and the son asked "whats the difference?" and she said " well, an accident is something you would take back if you could go back in time and a surprise is something you didn't expect but couldn't live your life without" or something like that.Thats exactly what my daughter is a pleasant surprise that I couldn't live without :).Oh and I did make myself look like an idiot with the IUI thing...DURR they would stimulate the woman to make more eggs, I don't know why I didn't think that I just thought it was timed carefully so when the egg was released they would inseminate...I thought it was kinda pointless but it worked for women so I figured it must work somehow...WOW I'm a dork.

I'm DONE with online shopping.

2008-03-10T02:39:00.000-07:00

Its just so risky not so much receiving the item you chose to buy which I haven't on two separate occasions(we wont get into that) but the finality of it (is that a word?) anyways I was researching treadmills and I decided to get one well I immediately realized I picked the wrong one (more expensive yet did less and got horrid reviews) if I was in a store I could just turn around and take it back but online? OOOOH NO they don't let you even though theres no trouble in canceling an order while its still in processing (which is just another word which means they haven't done jack crap to the order yet)I don't mind returning things to stores that are bought online its just you don't get the shipping back so your just out that money even if you don't want the stuff shipped in the first place,does no one else see a terrible flaw here?I mean save the man hours for something useful your making a mail carrier bring me something I don't even want and plan to immediately drive down to the store and return. Oh well I guess my lessons learned but good grief my lessons are starting to cost me on shipping fees, so even though its in a way convenient and often the only way to get a certain item I want, I'm going to stop buying things online :(. On another note I was watching Jon and Kate plus 8 (i ♥ that show)and they were answering viewer mail and someone asked if they had an IVF or IUI and they said IUI,That was a shock to me,I guess because in my eyes IVF's are more linked to multiples than IUI, I mean doesn't IUI stand for intrauterine insemination? I know I'm risking sounding like an idiot but where the heck did those 6 eggs come from?If anyone can enlighten me I'd much appreciate it.Anyways I really like that show,it inspires me to keep my house clean because if she can keep a clean house with 8 kids I think I should be ashamed of myself if i cant, granted she has a maid come in once a week I try to erase that from my memory so I can remain motivated :P

trying out some photoshop actions.

2008-03-06T16:24:00.001-08:00

before
after

** you must click the pic to see the difference**

Now I'm just waiting on my lens

Breast u/s results

2008-03-06T11:26:00.000-08:00

I got a call from my dr this morning asking me to come in for the results,talk about a bad way to wake up...they said if there was nothing found they wouldn't call, so I knew it was SOMETHING at that point,but I really didn't want to drive 2 hours to get some possible bad news(that would be torture) so I asked if they could possibly just tell me the results over the phone.The nurse said she would see and call me back,They called me a little while ago and said there were a few abnormalities(WHAT) but that it wasn't really a cause for concern at this point (WHEW) So I have to have another mammogram in 6 months.I'm not gonna lie, I'm not relieved...a little but not very much.I've got 6 more months to make sure I'm in the clear...G R E A T.

Look who can play peek a boo!

2008-03-01T19:15:00.000-08:00

I thought it was just a fluke when she did it with her aunt, but then she started doing it with her dad so I ran to record it.She of course stopped once she saw the camera :P but she actually does it.Yeay for milestones :)

Holy crap did I just do this?

2008-03-01T01:59:00.000-08:00

WOW!!!I've done something like this before with coloring in but this is so much better! I cant wait I'm going to do this to her easter pics for sure,photoshop R U L E S

**yes thats her little booty...I couldnt get a good angle for the life of me so you cant really tell, oh well I'm learning**

My first try at photoshop

2008-02-29T10:39:00.000-08:00

before

after

It took me 3 days to learn everything I needed to do this lol

*UPDATE*

tweaked it after some tips from flickr

Our trip to Virginia

2008-02-28T20:01:00.001-08:00

Ok so let me start off by introducing everyone (in no particular order)

Oma

Bug

Jesse

Opa

Rose

Joshua

Mark

Marie

Yes, I know a house FULL of people so Savannah rarely had a dull moment, which has been a big mistake because now that were home she constantly wants someones attention...wonder how long it'll take to break her of it, oye!

Chesterfield was absolutely beautiful,I loved the trees and the houses

Heres the house

heres the neighborhood (omg, I was drooling its so beautiful)

So, like I mentioned my bounce flash just stopped working...my brother in law said hey we have one you can use, and from then on my eyes were opened to a new world.Don't get me wrong I liked my old flash but I had no idea how cheap it was until I got my hands on a decent one...let me demonstrate

Look at the bright clarity of theses pics

But you can still get the shadows I liked so much about my bounce flash its awesome...so of course I had to ask for it(what? they didn't even use it...long story short...I have a new flash,yay me, but I'm going to buy one that matches my camera soon...this flash is for canon cameras and I have a pentax so its hard for the camera to focus and I sometimes get blurry pics)

Heres another one taken with the new bounce flash...ok look at my babies hair, blonde as can be!

I see why now look at my husbands mop top as a kid. But his darkened up with age,so I'm sure hers will too...I'm a little afraid of a blonde afro :P

and lastly here are some pictures of our trip to colonial Williamsburg

This ones my absolute fav

Savannah met her great grandma too

The trip made me miss my family :( ,we should be making a trip to cali soon.

I also downloaded photoshop cs3 so, I'm working on a few things that I will post either tonight or tomorrow ...ummmm thats it I think...OH it didnt snow after all it melted so quickly it was nothing...so no first snow for Savannah as of yet.

**DONT FORGET TO CLICK THE PICS**

Yes I'm home

2008-02-28T09:06:00.000-08:00

Just running around like a chicken trying to get back to normal, been really busy, I'll be back with pics soon :).

Boy am I ever gonna have an update

2008-02-24T14:01:00.000-08:00

When I get back.I miss blogging and I took SO many pictures.I have lots to tell too - long story short my bounce flash fell apart and I was given one by my step dad HUGE DIFFERENCE now I'm on a flash kick again and am trying to get my hands on a kick ass lens,I've been learning so much about photography I'm really starting to love it, anyways yeah I'll update when I get home.I hope the stuffs still outside...I'll return to internet land late monday!

Hello from Virginia

2008-02-20T18:21:00.000-08:00

I'm on my brother in laws comp, were having fun...package was delivered, yesterday...the day we left...anyways,its snowing right now so Savannah gets to see her first snow! bye bye for now :)

Oops

2008-02-18T13:34:00.001-08:00

I just realized that to people my name appears as ~Joe &hearts but its suppose to be ~Joe ♥...I realized it after Nancy and Amy referred to me as Joe hearts. Lol after a wtf moment I realized that the code didn't work when you post a comment...so I'll just be Joe no ♥ cause it doesn't show :(.On another note I will be gone for a week, yes, I know its horrible , but I must.Were going to visit the in laws in Va. We are leaving tomorrow morning and wont be back till next Tuesday...icing on the cake I have yet to receive the last of the stuff for Savannah's room (all from one person hmmm starting to wonder) so that means if it ever does get delivered it will have to sit outside till we get back...terrific!

Ok, cant take pictures in Savannahs room... (warning yet another picture share)

2008-02-17T20:07:00.000-08:00

Thats what I discovered today...pink walls and bounce flash don't mix, I think our beige walls are what give my pictures the looks they have...I bet white walls would look differently, anyways look what happened.

Yikes huh, well I liked this picture way to much to let it go to waste so i tweaked it.

I like this

But I LOVE this

Problem solved.

Shes queen of her castle :)

Oh, also I finally got my nanu full on smiling.I told Merrell it was the main reason why I wanted a new camera because I could never catch her smiling...well today I realized I still hadn't caught her smiling so we gave it a try...

The bounce flash was running out of batteries and was working slow so that didnt work...

Then we would get her to laugh and she would kinda do this thing where she would squeal to the Gods...

But then I got one... shes drooly and red from teething and I think that may be a boogie in her nose but my God shes perfection.

Whats to eat?

2008-02-17T14:12:00.000-08:00

Well Savannah's 5 months now...or 4 months 4 weeks isn't that technically 5 months? Anyways, we mixed in some applesauce baby food with her cereal she liked it ok, but she really liked green beans with her cereal I gave her a couple days ago and that was one gross looking concoction let me tell you...one thing comes to mind, throw up, The Exorcist,but she gobbled it up...it was hard feeding it to her, IT LOOKED SO GROSS. But I guess thats my problem, I don't think she noticed. I was reading a parenting magazine I had gotten from her pedi (they always give us free stuff ) and it had said that children today are so use to processed foods and processed sugar that they dont appreciate naturally sweet foods and reject things not packed with sugar...they gave an example, a peanut butter and jelly sandwich a container of applesauce and a box juice...normal lunch right? 12 spoons of sugar 12!. I'm actually worried about that, I cant sit here and lie and say I'm going to make sure she eats all natural organic things...I gave her a sip of my Hawaiian punch before for petes sake (yeah I know bad) but I think I'm going to venture into healthier eating for my family... we will see how this goes...I feel like taco bell....

For anyone thats curious...

2008-02-17T02:01:00.000-08:00

I completely forgot to update,we have yet to get any info back from my Dr. , turns out they never got the fax from the hospital I got the u/s done...sooooo I have to call them up Monday...I swear I think they just want to get paid first because they wrote down our insurance code wrong and they called right away for that. Whatever, there needs to be a change, OBAMA FOR THE WIN....don't let Hilary fool you she was for universal health care till she was bought off.

I need lenses.

2008-02-16T11:51:00.000-08:00

But there so expensive I'll have to do without for now...

heres a picture I took outside...

Not so great, but I wonder if its the lens or my skills lol.Either way there are a lot of lenses I do want to get eventually...anyone have any tips?

And so....I wait

2008-02-16T11:45:00.000-08:00

Wait for the rest of Savannahs nursery items to get here, wait to print out pictures for her room,wait to go to va for a week.wait, wait, wait.I hate waiting, I hate the feeling, I think pregnancy has done this to me. Now waiting makes me uneasy...seriously.But anyways thats why there have been no updates...theres nothing to update...

Venturing away from auto mode...

2008-02-14T18:58:00.000-08:00

I'm improving, no?

Excuse the messy table

this ones my absolute fav...

ok, ok I'm done for today...you see all the pics I'm posting imagine what my poor husband has to go through..."Merrell smile...get her to laugh...wait do it again...again...one more time ":P

**dont forget to click to make them bigger!! you cant really see unless their bigger**